Weirdo

Life is so weird that I really don't get a thing.
At a moment, our distance seems far far apart. And at another moment, we seems closer than usual, as if we are in our olden days.
I am very sorry to say that, maybe all the while, I had been taking things for granted, no, taking you for granted.
I expect too much from you, while I am the wrong one all the time you are tolerating with me. There are definitely hidden scars in our hearts, and I am so sorry to admit that some of your scars are from me. After chilling myself down by skipping school yesterday, I really had been clearing up all my thoughts instead of studying at home ;P And, my decision is to forget all the unworthy memories and create more fab memories with everyone I loved, especially you. I really owe you a lot.

Well, it's depressing, really. 21st of May should be a memorable day for me as it is going to be my birthday, but, God makes this day even more unforgettable by letting me take my Physics papers on my great day and worst, Bio papers after my so-great day. I had a simple wish, HAHA, lame actually, I wish I can get to drink Starbucks coffee on my birthdayyy :) Well, don't ask me more about my wishes, because I really have too much! :D Anyway, Qing, do well for ur Physics on ur birthdayyy yeah :) OH NO this is so sad :(

I managed to lose some weight off me this year, but lately, I have been gaining some on me due to my greediness and boreness. Please, I want to look slimmer, I hope I can do it! :D

Horrified

Yeah. Cheers because I have done my english oral. But, to me, I still failed!

It was my most embarrassing moment in my whole life, I cried in front of my WHOLE CLASS while doing my oral. what the hell?! I was so lousy right? Hmmm. It's not that I am stupid until I have no ideas. NO! It's just that I don't know how to express my ideas and I get so frustrated with myself and in the end I panicked, and tears started to flow out uncontrollably. Bla bla bla. A lot more to say. I have no courage to continue. Loser Qing ://

Like Pn.Monica said, I am only 17 years old and I have lot more to learn. I should cry if I am 71 years old now. So, Qing, it's better late than never! Keep learning :D

Talk about confidence, I am the one who has no faith in myself at all. I am lack of confidence ://

Wheezing in dreams

Yeah, lately I am so damn tired, and I think I can become a real panda, because I never have enough sleep ever since I turn 16 last year :// This year, it turns worst. With all the projects, works, tuitions, activities and all kind of blah blah blah stuff, phewwww, I hardly have time to rest besides facebooking and blogging ><
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I duno why, I really don't. Why do all the teachers waking me up when I was sleeping in class and not waking the others? Hmpphh. Yeah. Today, Pn. Hasila wake me up while I was sleeping behind that tall pile of Maths books which I purposely put on my table. Yesterday, Pn.C woke me up because I was dozing off to sleep during her period. Actually she just pointed her magic finger at me and I woke up with a start and only then I found out that every classmates of mine are locking their eyes on me :// Tell u what, that CHRISTINA CHOO and LOH PEI QIAN are also sleeping and lucky shit, Pn.C never notice! ><
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I wanted to write more, but I am too lazy, because I am also updating another blog of mine at the same time, and also, its 12.31 am now. I am doing sivik project, for CHOO, since she is so lazy ><
woiiiiii, u owe me! ;P
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I had fun laughing crazily in class with my best friends. Well, they are crazyyyyy >< Mimicking people can be so fun HAHA :) And so, I spent my whole physics and chinese period laughing like a crazy woman with doraemon and my babyyyy :P :D

Never miss an opportunity to put a smile on someone's face. It might be the only one they get today.

Illusions

If you want to hold my hands, please don't let go easily :)

Last week, when I passed by him, my heart flutters. He seems taller than usual. When I walk along with him, I kinda feel protected and I love that kind of feeling so much. It makes me feel safe and as if no one else can hurt me. After that, I can't help to look back and start racking my brains to think about my past. Different kind of memories flooded me. I wonder, if we are still together now, how do we look like today? :)
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 Exams are coming real soon, and I am still unprepared. ON NO! Well, I just can't keep myself away from facebook and blogger, thanks a lot to the computer. I really want to do well for my exams, but i don't think i can ://
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I sold pizzas for the last time in my whole entire life with my lovely friends : Edalene, Carmen, Pei Qian, Pei Ming, Sin Yee and Shi Hui ;) It was quite fun and I am sure I won't forget this memorable pizza sales! :D And... Congratz to myself, I managed to do the cute little penguins and I even do two! :D Haha I am a pro! ;P Well, I wanted to talk more, but my time is limited, so ya. Chaos~

Troublemaker

I am a troublemaker, all I know is giving troubles to everyone, my family, my friends.
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Who am I?

I keep asking myself this question, again and again whenever I felt lose, and so, I felt worst because I don't have an answer to this question.
Sometimes, I feel like dying, because the loneliness ate my heart up, bit by bit, leaving me writhing to death, with no one with me. I never like to disturb my friends too much, because I know, sooner or later, they will get fed up with me, and I rather do things by myself and not relying on people.

 Silence is a girl loudest cry

Stressed?

I am very exhausted lately. I have been shutting my eyes for only 3 to 5 hours per day, with the tons of schoolwork, project and tuition work. I have been wishing and wishing that I can get to sleep more, but my wishes never come true. Nobody can know how tired I am. I was so tired that I can even feel my heart thumping extra slow and I have no energy in me at all. 

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How nice if everything can slow down :)

Everyone is talking about exams,SPM blah blah blah... I am not even ready. I envy those geniuses, who can score well in every exams. I may be brainless, and I hate to stuff things in my brain, so I have a lousy memory, and so I am stupid.

But...

No matter how stupid or how useless I am, I still would like to score well in my exams, especially in my SPM. And... If I cannot even score well in this coming mid term exams, then I will be totally hopeless for my SPM. 

I wish I could just faint, so I could just keep my eyes shut and get away from my simple yet complicated life.

Mummy,Daddy and those who care for me, please do not have high hopes for me, because I may let you down.

Are you crying?

No, I am just washing my eyes

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Crying just seems to be a waste of tears and energy, but I still cry no matter how many times I say to myself 'Stop crying idiot!'
# I always wanted to be strong and tough, but I always seems to fail everytime.
Because I am weak.
Because I am useless.
Because I am fragile and easily broken.
Because I keep lying to myself that I am okay.
Because I always pretend to live in my own fantasy.
Because I am brainless.
Because I am a coward.
Because I am an idiot, a big fool.
Because I want people to pay attention to me.
Because I keep pretending I don't care for anything.
Because I am always wrapping myself tightly and try not to expose myself, not giving chance to anyone to walk in my heart.
Because I am too fearful to get hurt.
Because I have a mask, borrowed from The Phantom of the Opera.
Because I am a nobody.
And because I am a troublemaker.
All I know how to do is to eat, sleep and create problems for my family and friends.
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Who are you?
Who am I?
Who is Lim HuiQing?
I don't even know myself, so I don't expect people to understand me either, because I am a weirdo, and a boring girl.

So, people, pay no attention to me, stop caring for me, because there is no HuiQing in this big, big world </3

My Dream Shoes ;)

Which girl doesn't want to be a princess? But not every one is so lucky, to have a blissful live with the price, ever after.
All I want is just a pair of princess heels that fits perfectly for me.
Is it too much to ask for?
Why can't a simple wish of mine comes true? </3

Fear

Yeah.. Last Friday, I stayed back after school. At first i wanted to just take my 2 boxes of pizzas (thanks to Pn. Lim.S.K) and chao but seems that Carmen needs help, so yeah, I stay to help selling pizzas. WOW selling pizzas is a hard job! My classmates ended up buying the pizzas with our money, including me, so I really have fear for pizzas now~ And... unfortunately, on Saturday, my mum actually baked her own pizza, and I was like : WHAT THE........ Haha still, I ate one piece :)

Yesterday, Edalene, Christina, Chai Lee and me went to Jia Hui's house to do our Sivik project :) We went to the park nearby and took a lot of epic pictures :D We ended up eating nasi kandar and drinking ChaTime! :)

Well, this are updates for this week. Ciaos~

Thanks to Doraemon. Now I have cravings for the sushi ><